Now I am in my dpo (days past ovulation) 10th /11th day; it is a long and worrying wait. Somehow I got the feeling that I am pregnant, but I did do a pregnancy test (which I shouldn't be) yesterday and I got a clear SINGLE line...
I do want to get pregnant, to have a baby, to have a kid in my life, as I want this pregnancy, this baby, this kid be a motivation of my life. I realise I have nothing to look forward to, no motivation, no enthusiasm in life anymore. My life has become very routine, and I seem to lose interest in most thing. Due to desperation, I even went to pray where ever the forum people said it will come true.
But, even if I am pregnant I tends to get worry too, I am worry that I will get ectopic pregnancy once again. On the other hand, I am kind of confidence that if this pregnancy is a real one, it will be a normal and healthy one. I gave myself a lot faiths and hopes. It just another 4 days for me to depend on the result, I will be seeing my chinese doctor this coming Monday and I shall see how good she is and what will be my verdict.
I am sincerely praying to my GOD, and I really hopes my prayer is heard.
Good night
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