pending for Ovulation

I am 18 days after period and still waiting for my ovulation. I am puzzle with my own body,  as i am using the clear blue fertility monitor, till to-date my monitor still telling me I am not fertile. Instead of puzzle, I'm more like worried with myself... am I really not fertile at all? Based on my past record, approximately day 16 I will be ovulating but now I am not even fertile.. :(

Yesterday I went to my cousins's baby shower, once again I am been asked about this question: "when is your turn?". My answer to this question is "GOD dont want to give me, what can I do", i realised this answer is the best answer for this type of question. People who asked the question and got this answer will not dare to further the conversation as the hint is way too obvious.

Suddenly I recalled, I still got balance of the ovulation strips, I am not sure should I test together with the fertility test.  If I do, am I stressing myself? 2 weeks ago I went to see my TCM, she told me I am stress but last Friday was my follow up and she told me I am much calmer. I hopes this is a good sign for me.

Now I am really hoping GOD will give me the baby dust, I need my hubby to be around this week. He is on standby to India but please dont let him go off today, tomorrow or Wednesday. Please let him go off at least on Friday... I am very sure this week is my ovulation week and bet to go for a try!